因为拥有而害怕失去，

因为失去了而不想再拥有，

因为放不下而觉得痛苦。

人总是因为不认识才在一起，因为认识才分开。

the LOOK the Blue-ish Bunny hop @ 12:33 AM.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

ended...

the LOOK the Blue-ish Bunny hop @ 1:10 AM.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

sometimes in life its really weird..

u suddenly came to me and said all those things..

u said i have changed..

i am no longer the one u used to noe...

but..

u must understand that..

it might be u r the one who made mi change..

in the past...

u cant give mi wat i need..

when i need u.. u wont there for mi..

u contact mi when u need mi..

u reserve ur actions by saying we have a huge gap between us..

i gave u chance again and again.. yet wat i get is disappointment...

and u out of blue pop up dat question a few mths ago...

and now u dun seems to trust mi...

all these things.. make mi feel dat u r just making use of mi..

but

everything was too late..

u r the one who did not cherish all those opportunities..

i'm fine with ur decision..

the moment when i turn my back against u..

is the moment when we become strangers..

i.. am just acting according to ur wishes...

Goodbye...

the LOOK the Blue-ish Bunny hop @ 2:27 AM.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

(edited)

oh well..

the day have finally come...

which i didnt wanted to faced it very much..

guess... i cant run away from it..

guess.. i really have forgotten a promise to myself which i had made from the start..

is to not to fall into in too deep..

i knew it all along.. that his heart wasn't all into mi..

all these while..

i am just trying to cheat myself..

cheat until i am too immersed into my own lies...

i know there is my place in his heart..

but the placing is not strong i guess..

until yst..

i decided to pull back most of the feelings...

trying to suppress all of it..

coz.. i noe the situation is different now..

its nt the same anymore...

its difficult... but i knew i had to do it so that the hurt would be minimize when the worst situation happen..

for now... i will wait for his decision..

i will respect the decision watever it is..

if he is happy.. i dun mind to suffer all by myself..

Sry for everything..

and last but not least.. I love u...

shall wait patiently for the ans..

ps: guys... i'm fine.. pls dun ask mi anything... dun wry ok? thx..

___________________________________________________________________

i didnt regret my decision being with him at all in the first place...

honestly...

i really dun want to loose him..

really...

will i walk alone through this path or he will walk together with mi?

i can't do anything at all but to wait now...

i am indeed silly am i??

haha...

there is one song.. really describe wat i thinking rite now..

the feeling when i'm holding ur hand..

说不上为什么
我变得很主动
若爱上一个人
什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣布
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到我现在的感受
河边的风在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手
一阵莫名感动
我想带你回我的外婆家
一起看着日落
一直到我们都睡着
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我 想带你骑单车
我 想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧 唱着歌 一直走
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你 靠着我的肩膀
你 在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活
爱上你 你爱我
想 简~简~单~单~ 爱
想 简~简~单~单~ 爱

true indeed..

haha..

the LOOK the Blue-ish Bunny hop @ 3:38 PM.

Monday, November 14, 2011

*cough cough*

Its been really a long time since i last update my blog...

really long...

sry guys~ i didnt kept my promise...

for the last 8 months ++..

my days are going up and down...

but i do have happy moments.. with my besties.. with my baby..

anyway...

i dun noe am i just sensitive or think too much..

just feel dat.. i'm starting to drift away again...

esp when now.. i am facing a huge and unsolvable problem which affecting mi alot...

(ppl... dun bother to come ask mi what it is.. coz no matter how u guys going to ask.. i am not going to say out.. )

this problem kinda makes mi so depressed.. so lost..

just like.. i'm walking in a never ending tunnel where i cant seems to see the light from the exit..

sometimes.. i really wonder y u care for others more than u care for mi?

y i feel the way u guys treat mi is so different?

y that particular problem came to mi?

y my efforts still not been appreciated?

y?

y?

y?

no one really can noe how am i feeling now...

sry guys.. for blogging such a depressed post after so long...

"who can see the sorrow behind your smile, the love behind your anger and the reason behind your silence"

the LOOK the Blue-ish Bunny hop @ 10:24 PM.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

hi ppl..

i am back again...

=P

been sooo busy with sch stuff for the past few months...

anyway..

exams are over..

holidays are here..

so....

i am gonna update my blog soon...

for REAL!!!

hahaha...

so....

stay tune ppl...

I WILL BE BACK!!!!

SOON~~!

the LOOK the Blue-ish Bunny hop @ 9:34 PM.